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Don't Get Left Behind before/after Conversation from last night: Argentum:"Do you miss me?" Lydia:"Yes." Argentum:"How much?" Lydia:"A lot." Argentum:"Really." Lydia:"But I won't come up to visit this weekend." Argentum:"Ooookay.� Why not?" Lydia:"Well, firstly, I may end up doing something with a friend. And second, I don't know if I can...do... this anymore.� I still feel intimidated, and like, I'm in way over my head when I hang out with you.� And I'm not happy with the way we met, I know you are, but I'm not.� Its something that really bothers me.� I haven't ever been without a relationship, and I want to be sure I'm allright by myself.� I tend to neglect myself and make sacrifices for the other person-" Argentum:"What sacrifices have you made for me?" Lydia:"Well...none." Argentum:"Okay. Just checking." Lydia:"And I'm just not sure I want to have sex right now.� Because when I do with you, I have these strong feelings...and...and...I'm just not ready for that right now.� I'm not ready for a relationship." Argentum:"I never asked you for anything." Lydia:"What do you mean?" Argentum:"Like, I never asked you for anything, like a commitment or anything." Lydia:"I know, but I wouldn't feel right, having sex without a commitment." Argentum (thinking):� Well, what have you been doing the past month and a half?� Looney, looney, looney Lydia:"And, I kinda' feel we have a relationship right now." Argentum:"Uh...Does this have anything to do with your ex-boyfriend." Lydia:"No.� This has nothing to do with that." Argentum:"Did I do something wrong?" Lydia:"No." Argentum:"So, this is the basic, 'its not you, its me' speech." Lydia"-" Argentum:"Youre making me feel like I am a) not good enough for you, and b) not worth your time- Lydia:"That is so unfair of you to say." Argentum:"Hey, whatever.� I'm not going to try to change your mind. I respect any decision you make.� I truly understand wanting to be okay on your own before getting involved with someone else, because I do that myself.� And I don't want someone to be with me that doesn't want to be with me, you know?" (pause) Argentum:"I'm going to miss you." Lydia:"I'm going to miss you, too." (pause) Argentum:"I love you." Lydia:"Don't say that." Argentum:"Well, its true.� I do. (pause)� When was the last time you told someone you loved them?" Lydia:"I told my mom today." Argentum:"Someone besides your parents." Lydia:"Uhh-" Argentum:"-and your sister." (pause) Lydia:"I don't know.� When was the last time you said it to someone beside your parents or your brother?" Argentum:"I say it all the time.� I used to think it cheapened the value to say it too much.� Like there was this unbelievable standard to be reached before I would tell someone I loved them, but I learned that was wrong.� Love's value increases the more you try to give it away." (pause) Argentum:"I think you are a beautiful, wonderful girl, that any guy would be lucky to be with.� I always felt like I could trust you, and that counts for a lot.� I think you are smart, special.� I enjoyed the time we spent together.� I hope you figure everything out.� I hope you get good grades and do well." Lydia:"I'm not sure I'm making the right decision." Argentum:"I wish you the best of everything." Lydia:"I'll call you...soon." Argentum:"I won't hold my breath." Lydia:"How can you say that to me?� If I say I'll call, I'll call." Argentum"Yeah, right.� Sure. I hope everything works out for you." ( long pause) Argentum:"Sleep well." (long pause) Lydia:"Goodnight." Argentum:"Goodnight."
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