More Complete Honesty Pt 6: Shock
2002-01-26 - 1:54 p.m.
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I went to receive more treatment.
High powered stuff, they feed it into my arm through a tube that drips, drips, drips. It takes awhile. The first time took seven hours.
Keep that arm still. I get my own room, with a small tv on an arm that hangs over my head. I read, watch inane tv, and get stuff drip, drip, dripped into my arm.
I had a bad reaction. I went into shock. At least, that's the blanket term. The literature says nothing at all about "shock".
(I read everything that I can when it comes to me. I start with the doctor's literature, work my way down, then read case studies. Its not any sort of hypochondriasis, or neurotic anxiety bug. I just believe that within fifty to one-hundred years, the present state of medicine will be regarded for its barbarisim, innaccuracies and breakthroughs all the same, rather than just lauding accomplishments as they do now. I also have a conviction that things will eventually be solved by pills and infusions, and lately have wondered about something else.
I just have this weird suspicion, especially on days one just does not feel up to par, that there is this certain warm, moist, multi-flavored gas or essence one could inhale, manufactured from dna and such, and be refreshed. I know it sounds weird, but enticing.
Huff. Huff. Ready to go.)
Medical terminology has several layers of precision, and I think the term "shock" isn't entirely accurate, though perhaps applicable to what occurred. I started feeling really strange, at sea. My face throbbed. I heard my heart in my ears.
And breathing became impossible. Like my lung capacity was rapidly diminishing. I called for the nurse repeatedly with failing voice, and eventually they came.
I really had trouble breathing by then. Odd. If that's what its like to have eymphasema, then I am quite glad I quit smoking, even though I miss my smokes. The stopped the deal, and gave me a mainline shot of benadryl.
I was already on benadryl. I drifted way out, felt sleepy as hell, and then was overcome by chills.
They started the medicine again eventually, and ten hours after I started, I drove home.
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