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2008-01-06 - 10:55 p.m.
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I love the
Wikipedia.
Use of the wikipedia is...one of those things. If you look up
a pop-culture subject, you're likely to come up with trash.
But if you have a taste for basic info on more esoteric or historical
grounds, wikipedia is actually useful. Ive spent some time
tripping through its pages, learning of things as I was wont to do.
Honestly? Public school should have been a little bit like
that. Give me access to information, let me sort through it
and learn as I would. I am insatiable in that way.
Anyway, a couple of things about my search:
1) A few months ago I had a kidney infection which led to an
incredible fever. In my fever dream, I appealed to St.
Michael. I had the urge to do so for a few weeks prior, but
fought the urge. Being brought up Protestant...prayers to
angels are a bit verboten.
I don't identify as Protestant anymore, but still the notion seems a
bit odd. I'm not sure where I stand on the subject of angels.
In terms of theology, I always thought they were a bit
useless.
Practically speaking, if you're omnipotent, as God is, or should be,
you really don't need a special creation to do your bidding.
All of creation WILL do your bidding at your slightest whim,
being that you are omnipotent.
Then again, in terms of freewill, maybe this necessitates the creation
of angels. I'm not sure on that point.
So, like I said, I'm not sure I necessarily belive in angels or not.
But anyway, I prayed the Prayer to St. Michael .
I'm
not sure if the fever broke or not. The next day I went to
the emergency room and got an IV of levaquin.
At the time,
though, I got the sense of drawing the attention of an extremely
powerful being. In a sense, in my feverish state, I was
allowed to see St. Michael in a manner that my substandard sensory
systems could handle without being overwhelmed, and, as such, this fact
was communicated to me.
So, as much as I could sense, he was near. And he was...far
larger than I could comprehend.
It was as if I could only see a certain amount, like...he could only
fit on the size of my 'monitor', before I had to scroll and
re-comprehend again.
I could see from the bottom of his robes to his knee. Then my
mind would have to close off some (my third eye...?, in
eastern metaphysical speak?), shfit, and then I could see another part,
say from his knee to his waist, and so on. He was so
incredibly enormous it was almost overwhelming. I was scared
of regarding his face, and I don't acurrately recall perceiving it.
What I can extract from the delerium was attempting to
glimpse, and being overwhelmed, and the connection, or perception
rather, being lost or broken. As if the light was too much,
and because of this light I could not see, and was overwhelmed, even as
I was being permitted to see, or...rather...protected enough to see.
And, like I said, the fever did seem to lift enough for me to be able
to drive to the emergency room the next day. I believe it
did, although I have no independent scientific verification (i.e.
thermometer).
Did this happen? Well, that takes me back to the parable of
Chang Tzu and the butterfly...which is real and which is the dream?
How do you know? (collorary: prove it)
2) One of my earliest intruiges in regards to religion and
the bible was the fall of the angels and the passage in...deuteronomy,
I think, about how angels had come to earth and taken wives, as well as
teaching man certain 'forbidden' knowledge, like metallurgy, warmaking,
and apparently, cosmetics.
At the time I questioned my teachers as to what happened to the
offspring. Being that I was in 3rd grade, it was explained
away and I was generally intimidated from asking too many questions.
I was scoffed at and laughed at to a certain extent, but I
could sense the unease of my teachers.
Now my problem exists in two parts: one, if the Old
Testament, or the Bible in general, is supposed to be parables and
symbolism of deeper truths and not to be taken literally, what is the
point of this? Why relate the tale of 'horny' angels?
Secondly, if this is supposed to be taken literally...where are the
angel children? Digging into it, I found that the
ring-leaders were punished, and the (supposedly giant) half-angel /
half-human children were killed under orders of the Most High.
(Azazel, particularly, was bound up by Michael and buried
deep under a moutain, until the time of the Apocalypse, where he will
then be trotted off to Hell, never to return. Man, is that a
raw deal just for getting some pussy...)
And that begs the question at this point: if you KNOW there's
a God, and you KNOW that he's going to be unhappy with your actions,
and you KNOW there are going to be some nasty reprecussions...why go
through with it? Supposedly in the Book of Enoch it details the two
ring-leaders taking an oath regarding the seduction of women and likely
the perversion of the course of human history, which amounted to: hey,
we know what we're about to do, we don't want to be left out to do it
alone...lets all do it together), but any being as intelligent and
powerful as an angel, having clear and present proof either first or
second hand of the existence of the All Mighty...it just doesn't add up
to a whole lot of sense.
And to think of it... there is almost a romantic sense of
rebellion...of living for the moment, consequences be damned, rebelling
to grasp a moment of life...grasping that bountiful excruciating beauty
of time passing, of the fleeting pleasures of unbridled excastsy and
dominion, and trading a lifetime of servitude for that.
But...no forgiveness. Not an option, as these angels had to
have already seen what happened to Lucifer. So...do you do
this knowing that what you've done is pay for these moments with an
eternity of infinite suffering?
So, if one is to take the Bible as parable and symbolism...what is to
be learned?
If one is to take the Bible literally...why is this truncated so much
in the canon, when its clearly an important episode in the history of
humankind? Admittedly an aberration that was tidly 'cleaned
up' out of the gene-pool...but...
Why include it then? What's the point?
So, at any rate, why is it there?
Uriel
Sariel
Exorcism
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