Death at Va. Tech and Love
2007-04-18 - 1:24 a.m.

before/after
strangely non-functional guestbook

Storm rolling in off the bay.

Somehow I don't think it will bring a thunderstorm, with beautiful strokes of lightning, or a baptism of rain, washing away my sins in a river of forgiveness. �A fog of forgetfulness.

If the birds know, they aren't saying. �Not to me, in any language I speak, or know that I speak.

Sometimes men, in their crude brutishness, only speak in simple tongues.

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Hearing a thing like happened at Virgina Tech makes one ask a lot of questions.

Nobody ever really seems to ask the relevant ones. �No one gets possessed to find a solution.

In the intervening days, Im sure gun-control will come up. �As well as security on campus.

Band-aids for a gut gun shot wound.

Where is the love between us that would prevent this from happening inthe first place? �How heartless has our society become that we foster such repugnant growth, and were unable to do something about it prior to this explosion of self-loathing and anger?

'Cause don't buy for a minute that this guy hated the people he killed. �He loved them. He loved them so much he wanted to BE one of them. He was envious and lonely, like a beggar looking through a plate-glass window at the patrons in a restaurant, starving for affection, while inside he perceived bountiful buffet's of life's rich experience. �Like a beggar, he felt sent away.

Like a beggar he created fantasies and delusions that he was too good for them, possessing of a soul and understanding that he felt these people lacked, and could never have.

Unable to reconcile his views of hismself and the world, he lashed out before destroying himself.

What ever happend to the quiet nobility of suicide? �Jesus, if you think the world is so truly fucked, what difference would it make to kill a handful of assholes on a college campus? �Fucking kill yourself quietly with pills and leave the rest of us alone. �Save their parents, their families, the grief, do the right thing.

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Seeing monstrosity on a level of that would make most people grasp for whatever they could to reason. �Most will cling to faith.

How long until we hear opinions quielty floated around by certain individuals on opposite ends of the 'christian' scale say that he was possessed by demons?

Seeing a thing like that would make that an easy assumption, and easy explanation. �When things get too big for the human mind to easily comprehend or digest, we will often cling to the superstitious or supernatural explanation.

Which is interesting, but a long way away from the truth, which is to say that this guy's failure is ours, �most theological theories are failures,� and no amount of supernatural explanation can explain why we don't love each other the way we should, the way we are afraid to do.

And the current failures of a church that has lost its way, bound up in dogma and visions of a vengeful God are theirs.

Tonight, many mothers cry around the world cry for many lost children in many nations for many, many different reasons.

Let no one deceive you: �it is because we don't love each other enough.